It's been a while since I last posted, and I finally feel like I'm ready to start blogging again! I think I jut needed to put our big decision behind us and wait until it was final. And so...
After much thought and prayer it is now official. We will not be adding to our family again at this time. As most of you probably know, baby number four turned out to be baby number four and five. Twins. A little boy and a little girl. We both really wanted to adopt them, but mostly we both wanted to understand what God wanted. And in the end we didn't receive any affirmation at all, and really quite the opposite. We began to see and understand more and more that for who we are and where we are at, it would not be in anyone's best interest. The beautiful thing about it, is we came to the decision quite separately but around the same time, so we are both on the same page, which is such a blessing in itself. Please continue to pray with us though that God would put them with a wonderful family. Some times in my life, when I've had to let things go and "let God" I have taken them back and struggled with trusting Him. Not this time. He has completely protected my heart and I have let them go and trust God with all of my heart and just know confidently that he will take care of them and believe their story will be beautiful regardless of where they end up.
Now on to Jesse, my baby is 4!
Jesse Lee-"God's Gracious Gift" born May 9th 2006
God's Little Child
Oh, Little child, your life was planned.
Right from the start from the Father's hand,
He fashioned your frame in ways so grand,
And loves you in ways you don't understand.
And as you grow, may you always know
The Lord is there wherever you go.
We promise to love you thro' all your days and hours,
But never forget, His love is far greater than ours.
Our Father's Son, He freely gave
And all who believe, He surely will save.
Oh, little child, we're all adopted at so great a price,
But as God's little boy, you're adopted twice.
(the poem in his announcement card)

(the first time we met him)
Almost three years ago now, we went to meet our little boy. The cutest little thing I had ever seen in my life. I instantly fell in love. He has the most beautiful smile EVER. And he may be tiny but he has endless amounts of energy. He's a climber and can kick a soccer ball like none other. He's stubborn. He's affectionate. He's sweet. His attention span is short, but he can play all by himself for long periods of time.

-although he does prefer to play with his sister.


awww! If only they always loved each other this much!
It was so cute to watch him open his presents. He pulled his beloved Buzz Light Year out of the gift bag, his mouth wide open and yelled "BUZZ!" in astonishment. The neat thing was, he immediately handed it to Brooklyn and said, "here you can hold him!" Now obviously that is not how things always play out, but it is so sweet and precious when it does happen,
top 10 things Jesse loves
10. Candy
9. Church
8. School
7. Candy
6. Television
5. His new Bike
4.Braedon
3. Brooklyn
2. Anything remotely silly
1. Candy
We've been having a little problem with "candy" lately. He has discovered he loves it so much, he's been stealing it before any one else is up in the morning. He has no idea yet how to be sneaky about it and leaves the evidence all over the place. (One day all three of them were chewing away like mad and were quite surprised to realize they'd been busted with stealing a whole pack of gum out of my purse- they told daddy I gave it to them, and he fell for it!) We tried to put it up really high but forgot some so the next morning.... he did it again. I think we had 4 or 5 episodes in a row. If anyone has any good suggestions on how to deal with this let me know.
...And it finally happened for the little guy, after a year (or more) of trying everything, he is now pooping on the potty every time!! My solution? (Still grateful for the suggestion) You poop... you clean it! And let me tell you, that pretty much worked right away! He hated it! "eww this is gross!"
and I'd say "Yup, it is, isn't it? That's why I'm not doing it any more!" I know it sounds mean, but I was willing to try anything!

I just love the little guy so much, and wouldn't have wanted to spend Mother's Day any other way than to celebrate Jesse's 4th Birthday! Mommy and Daddy love you Jesse! You have blessed our lives more than you'll ever know!

